Headphones On

Before you say it, I do realize I'm an ungrateful child. So what that I'm over 30 and want a video game? I've never in my life actually owned a video game. When I ask for for presents for Christmas...it's things I wouldn't (or can't) buy for myself. With bills piled up and a bad economy... I can't buy myself a Wii no matter how much fun I had playing the tennis game at a friend's house. The green eyed monster in me has to take a back seat to the responsible adult who owns a home that costs her way too much money.

So when something like Christmas comes along, I put "Wii" at the top of my list. I drop hints. I send a text message or two to the powers that be to gift things like a wii. So when I opened my presents on Christmas Eve (I realize this is weird to most people but it's just how my family has always been) I received a crystal candle holder, a bowl and my dead dog's ashes in a box. What am I supposed to say to this? I say thank you. I try not to cry. I retire to the guest room and into my computer because if I have to look at them I just might scream.

Is it wrong of me to expect a nice present like a Wii? Yes. Do I do it anyway? Yes. These are the kinds of presents that are beyond my means but not beyond what they would normally do. Instead I open more crap to shove in a kitchen cupboard and try to smile. And the dog's ashes in a box... no matter how bad of a kid I might be that was in poor taste to hand me on Christmas Eve. They knew he was special to me and to hand him to me in a cardboard box... I have no words.

For the record... after this was written (but not yet posted) I was handed some money. It's gonna go great with my Amex bill to pay off all the presents I bought for Christmas.