Headphones On

I am at a loss for words. I have been this way for a few days. Let's back up, I'm in California for the wedding of two of my friends. It's been a relaxing and seat-of-yer-pants kind of holiday, but it's also been accompanied by alcohol, here, there and everywhere. I think the California wine has now made my head mushy.

I sat at dinner with two extraordinary friends last night (Duke's off the coast in Malibu) and struggled for conversation. My mind was entranced by the ocean, the seagulls, and the strange twinkling lights of Marina Del Rey. I'm a (somewhat) coherent and thinking person, yet absolutely nothing was going to come to me. I think my brain has been sucked out through the constant sunshine (or maybe it fled in fear on that detour up Mulholland Dr). I can't ever move here, I wouldn't be able to handle this vapid, empty feeling.